There are days, like today, that any positive thought and positive affirmation just drives me nuts. Some days are just like that. Don’t you find?
Enough already with the ‘be the change you want to see in this world’ and ‘think it and it will be’. Honestly! Today is an angry day. Today is a day full of feeling lower vibrations, emotions that DON’T promote growth, that don’t make you feel good. They’re not making me feel good. I am feeling terrible.
So what do you do when you feel Anger?
Affirmations don’t cut it. ‘Positive energy’ doesn’t cut it either. On my spiritual journey of growth, spiritual healing, learning to be a more powerful healer I have to release old anger. Today is it. Today I am releasing some pretty old cr@p. The anger is attached to old habits, old patterns, old fears, past-long gone events that don’t matter anymore, but the feeling is still here in my heart, in my entire body actually.
First step in releasing anger for me is: crying. That works temporarily. But then what. How do we progress from superficial feeling of the emotion to a deeper understanding of it? How do I now move to a sophisticated, detached view of this feeling, the past, the hurt? How do I now grow with it and move into a healing space?
Second step for me is: allowing. Seeing the anger, crying, or being truly angry with all my cells, my thoughts, my breath (read: fuming), with all my words (…dont’ worry, I am staying away from public spaces and random people). This living, breathing, feeling anger then transforms into a more peaceful ‘viewing of my anger’.
The third step for me is: acceptance. The last stage of feeling this rich, powerful emotion brings forth greater clarity. It feels like I have my body back. I also feel more energy. Anger is tiring. It tenses up the entire body. It ceases organs and shortens your breath. In the acceptance stage, I take a deep breath. Now, I still feel some residual anger, but it is in the distance, it is no longer in my core, and no longer monopolizing my mind, my heart, and my body tissues.
What was I angry about? – Myself, of course.
ps – choosing to reach out for an external tool, I picked up the angel cards. shuffled. picked one ‘randomly’. the chosen card: Archangel ‘Uriel’
“Your emotions are healing, which enables you to open up to greater love. I will help you release anger and unforgiveness from your heart and mind”
pss – sometimes the anger from the past isn’t even our own. I know as a child I absorbed toxic anger from the loved ones around me. to be complete it is vital to renew, regenerate your heart, mind, and body with beliefs, experiences, people, that support you.